Hi!

It took me a while to actually have the guts to write this to u. I've read all of ur blogs and there's one particular blog that I came across that struck me hard. I dun noe if u wrote it implying to someone else but it does sound familiar 2 me.

The night safari, the drama and every bits of content in it. I guess it was meant 4 me, then I have this to say. I never left u to begin wif. You said that when u decided to move forward, I retreated. I wanted so hard to work things out between us. I was frustrated when u never took the time to visit me here in JB. U were different & in some ways, u were very mysterious. There even comes a time when I grew impatient of waiting & waiting in vain that is. Now it's too late & the decision that I've made have sealed my fate. I am anything but happy now. I kept thinking of what I cud have done different if only I cud turn back time but that was never meant to happen, not even on my death bed. I am tired of things that I had gone thru & even to this day, I still wept for you in silence.

You had me once before and I've loved u then but now, I have to let it go. I never actually told u this but I'm sure it doesn't matter anymore. It hurts Red, to be standing here married to someone but the true fact is that, my heart belonged to someone else!

Yours faithfully,

I was clearing my email and deleting junks when I came across the email above. I wanted to delete it but finding it really hard to do it. Why? I mean why did I keep this email in Gmail at all?
A reminder. I kept it because I wanted to remind myself, I guess. People close to me are likely to tell me to get over it. And I had. It was quite awhile ago and at my worst I can be a stone-cold hearted bastard. What got me were her last sentence in the email.
It's never cool to know or find out that you could have caused so much hurt and pain to someone out there. Even if it isn't your fault in the first place. And this can never come undone now.
Anyway, the blog that I wrote wasn't intentionally exclusively about the author of the above email. I wrote it in mind of 3 different people but it was designed to her fashion.
And I'll remind myself again and again.