I browsed through my past blogs and came across a few of my own words that either made me laugh or reflect on my life then and now. So...

Pain is but a reminder of LIFE,
Pain is but the Truth,
Pain is the embodiment of living as it was,
Pain is the strength that's within,
Pain is my Teacher that teaches me I am human.
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Tuesday, March 04, 2003

Quite recently I truly realized & discovered a loss in which I've gained. Alas, a loss conceived by my own device. Let me now mourn my mistakes at my own pace and I pray that someday I find the courage to rectify the damage done. In depths of his soul, I know the scars he bore only to be protrayed in my own reflection. For reasons I can never reveal in this lifetime, I hope only forgiveness.

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this one made me laugh my head off! Truly I think this is one of my more original blog...just an excerpt, its an awfully long blog!

Saturday, May 03, 2003
MAY DAY! MAY DAY!

So, I was on my way meeting Mandom when there was an earthquake and the ground cracked, shooting water. I was stunned at what happened and barely had the time to recover when a huge monster crept out of the crevices of the opened ground. If I wasn’t mistaken it was a Kraken, a kind of sea monster, which somehow managed its way to Jurong West. This grotesque monster went about callously flailing its tentacles terrorizing small children! It was then I told myself, the wedding had to wait. Somebody had to teach that damn monster that it’s wrong to scare off small children like that. Taking a deep breath, I went to face the great odd, which may very well end my life. I didn’t care; I had to stop this stupid monster.

It had been quite awhile since I fought something this big. Thankfully, I always carried my light sabre along wherever I roam. Screaming at the top of my lungs, “Hey you big, flat, sotong-like bully! Pick on someone your own size!” I managed to get the Kraken’s attention because it’s face scrunched up for a second before taking a swipe at me with its slimy tentacles. I ducked and then somersaulted over its tentacles and at the same time slashed my light sabre through them.“Woof! Woof! Mauuuu!”

I smiled, feeling the satisfaction of hearing the wretched beast howling in pain. That’ll teach him to terrorize small kids. But I spoke within too soon because new tentacles began to grow where I’d slashed them. And this time there were sparks coming off the tips of those goddamn tentacles! Suddenly without warning the Kraken shot a lightning bolt at me! But thank goodness, my reflex was quicker and I caught the end of that lightning bolt with my palm absorbing the impact steadily just as Master Yoda had taught me in TV. With great effort I managed to feed the bolt back to the Kraken.“Woof! Woombeeek!”, Hah! Poor Mr Octopy got entangled wif its own widdle lightning bolt.

I knew it was then or never, I placed my light sabre in front of me and leapt into the air. As I somersaulted, positioning myself over the top of the Kraken ready to deliver my fatal blow and send it back to whatever hole that spawned this abomination, I took a deep breath. When I open my eyes I let out a cry that would strike fear in the hearts of most evil of men.

Kaza Ryu Sen – The 9 revolving Dragon Hammer Slash of the legendary Hiten Mitsurugi Style!

It’s all over in a second. Remnants of tentacle and goo lay all over the ground. It was messy I tell ya. Instinctively I glanced at my watch and remembered Mandom. Shit shit shit! There was no time for me to catch the bus or even a cab. So I had to fly, and in mere seconds I reached my destination and psionically preventing Mandom from leaving me behind, I called him on my cell phone. He wasn’t too happy about it. I wanted to tell him the truth, I swear I did but it would mean I had to compromise my identity as a Jedi Ninja. There were so many people out there who depended on Jedi Ninja for protection and justice. I was in torment, my Jedi senses picked up the violent thoughts of mandom. And I decided to face it like a man. I told him that I had set the alarm clock late and that was the reason for my late coming. After being reprimanded by such harsh, cruel and chastising words, I hung my head low in shame and asked for forgiveness. In my heart of hearts, if only mandom knew….